Last week, I saw a post on Instagram that said, “What’s bad for your heart, is good for your art.” I wish I could’ve triple tapped it because it’s soooooo true, at least in my case. I have a journal full of thoughts, recaps of conversations, and letters to men that’ve hurt me (of course in most cases, I never sent them; I’m not really a “Dear John” kind of girl). I hold onto them because of days like today. I’ve had such a great week, so with that said, the music I listen to has been upbeat, there are 2 dozen roses on my desk and my birthday is this upcoming Sunday (yes, Easter Sunday ). So, I’ve been in a consistently good mood.
I was talking to one of my songwriter girlfriends and she told me her best work also came from bad breakups and arguments with “her men.” LOL. She said, “I had an awful 10 month writing slump because ___________ [her boyfriend] had been amazing and at the time we were talking about our move to LA and __________ [her side boyfriend] finally got some “act right” so I was in a happy place with both of them.” Let me tell you, I died laughing! (Firstly, because her “two boyfriends” story always kept me in stitches). It’s also so funny to me because a string of bad dates, sleepless nights, tears, arguments and pain will stroke the hell out of your creative ego. I could write for days, but what will that mean once I settle down into becoming a wife and mother? Pain can’t be the only thing that motivates us. Right? I have one guy that I call my muse. LMBO. When we’re not arguing my writing is different. I never noticed that initially, but it’s absolutely true. There’s another guy I’ve always felt super connected to and when we’re in a good space, I start having brain farts. And I know that, in an overall sense, creative people tend to be more eccentric. There’s a very fine line between creativity and insanity. I secretly live for the highs and lows of my love life which is why it’s easy for me to be so transparent with you all in my SuperGorge Single Girl’s Guide.
Today, I was supposed to be writing about taking responsibility for your love woes and the idea of earning loyalty, but this isn’t just a weekly advice/love post. It’s also like my mini journal. It’s my way to be expressive and communicative with you guys about what’s really going on with me. And today, this is what it is. Lol. But I promise you, my creative genius will always live in me. She’s really a monster. Kind of like my alter ego. I love her. She forces me to address those sickening buckets of tears but also makes it okay to acknowledge the large flappy winged butterflies soaring around my stomach. I’m pretty positive there are many other creative and expressive people who suffer from the famous “Writer’s Block.” I’d love to hear how you guys have dealt with it. Email me at firstname.lastname@example.org. I have a few ideas, but I would love some additional tips and pointers. Until next week…I guess I’ll be taking lots of hot baths with lit candles, love novels and a Melanie Fiona CD playing in the background. LOL. Have a SuperGorge week Dolls!